Last night/this morning was one of those days. Our little granddaughter, Meggan, had a severe migraine and nothing was working. These can last for days. The emergency medicine doesn't do what I'd like it to do (notice I said "I" want it to do). Because Meggan is only 10 1/2 the doctors are gradually introducing a stronger dose of the medicine. Today our daughter was going to take her to the ER because the pain was so severe. FInally a second dose of the "emergency" medicine took the edge off. I wish I could take this from her. She is rather shy and doesn't like to call attention to herself, so she is hesitant to tell anyone when they start. She doesn't want to be the center of attention. I just love her so much and wish there was a way to make them go away!!!
This morning our daughter in law was having surgery to remove her gallbladder. In my heart I knew she would be ok. Surgery went well , but she's in a lot of pain. I want to take that away, too!!!
So I say, "Dear Lord, why did you give me a caring heart? Why didn't you just give me the ability to be an instrument of healing?" There are no answers for this, I know.
I also know that telling someone who is worried and scared to just cool it doesn't work.
And, most importantly, when I love someone, I hate to see them suffer.
And so I pray "Dear Lord, help me to sleep
Even if I need to count sheep."