I posted this as Body, Mind and Spirit because, when we are grieving, each area is profoundly impacted and wounded. We do not need a calendar to tell us what time of the year it is because our Body, Mind, and Spirit are so intuned to that which altered our lives eighteen years ago. The Body reacts in the physical realm - physical and emotional symptoms reappear; the Mind remembers the details - going over every detail, trying to make sense out of the senseless; and the Spirit sinks, is depleted - the energy which would normally "drive" us, sustain us, becomes limp, unattainable.
The Heart wounds re-open.
If you have a heart wound right now, please know that you are not alone, that someone somewhere is praying for you. Be gentle with your brokenness.